For me, becoming isn’t about arriving somewhere or achieving a certain aim. I see it instead as forward motion, a means of evolving, a way to reach continuously toward a better self. The journey doesn’t end.”
Becoming is hard work, it takes a lot to drown out the voice of that internal critic. We cast self-doubt like pennies in a wishing well, we betray are our worse enemy and in the aftermath, we leave ourselves wounded, hurt and sometimes broken. When things fall apart it’s easy to call yourself a failure, it’s comforting to fall into the ‘pity zone.’
If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the past few months is how tough it is to get back up when life knocks you down. A few months ago I was forced to take a step back from everything, in doing that everything was pushed to the back burner then moved forward in order of relevance in my life. It was hard at first but the more time passed the easier it got. I spent some time making myself well through lots of self- care and by reevaluating everything that was going on in my life at the moment; my dedication to family, my friendships and my current job. Since moving here I’ve not had much luck in finding a work environment that was conducive to my wellbeing and personal development, but maybe I’m expecting too much in those regards. So that took me back to looking at myself instead of looking at the workplace, there I found that my expectations were a bit high, I was comparing my experiences here with those back home so I’ve decided to take a new approach to work. Get in, do the best at what I’m paid to do and get out! Last but not least, after so many years of blogging it was great to take a break, to figure out where to go with my writing, do I continue blogging or do I just call it quits, close up shop and go back to writing in the shadows?
While it was great to look at my life from a different point of view, I began to get a bit too comfortable with the view and before I know it December turned into January. January into February and now February into March. We all need that break from the norm to look at your life from a different perspective, see your way clear of where to put your foot next to find your becoming. But the point is to remember it’s just a break, don’t get comfortable sitting on the sidelines and watching life go by because once you stop it’s difficult to get back up, it’s difficult to pick up from where we left off and move on. Why? Getting too comfortable you lose sight of the path and you will never become who you were meant to be.
This is my submission to Debbie’s Forgiving Friday series, where she writes about and invite others to share their thoughts on Forgiveness, Self-Love and Personal Growth.
@Etta D. Richards