It’s nearly 1am here and I can’t remember the last time I’ve had a good night’s sleep. Ever since I could remember, insomnia has been my constant companion, it doesn’t matter what I’m going through in life, even during the best of times sleep evades me. Any given 15-minute nap will give me a 6-8 hr recharge, with age our batteries are supposed to slow down right? If only I could be so lucky.
What’s keeping me up at night: This night? The passing of my uncle. Another soul transitioned and I’m not there to support my cousins and family. Coming from a culture where family is everything, during times like these the distance is more evident. A phone just simply doesn’t suffice.
Most nights? Thoughts, ideas, reflection. Tonight I reflect on the holidays past. But then again I do this every Decemeber! Christmas has always been special because it was the time of year that everyone made their pilgrimage home. Christmas in The Bahamas used to be like Thanksgiving in America. It didn’t matter where you were in the world, Christmas Day would find you all under one roof sharing a feast. I long to experience that again. Right now, I’m just wishing for snow this Christmas, rain is just too wet!
Thoughts, my grandmother ofter offered me a penny for my thought! These days I really don’t get offered anything for my thoughts. Right now all I think about procrastination, the killer of all things creative!! Is it procrastination if your mind is consumed by procrastination?
Ideas, I have an idea to do something BIG! What is that something? I don’t know! There are just too many “Somethings” I want to do, it’s difficult to choose just one. But this something has to allow me to live comfortably, work from anywhere in the world, and visit home twice a year among other things!
It’s nearly 2am here and now I must reflect on the ceiling until dawn. 11/12/2020 01:58pm
Be the celebrators, celebrate! Already there is too much—the flowers have bloomed, the birds are singing, the sun is there in the sky—celebrate it! You are breathing and you are alive and you have consciousness, celebrate it!”
My rule of thumb is, if you haven’t used it in the past six months, then you don’t need it,. However, when we moved last September, there were a lot of stuff we had to give away because there was not enough space in our new place to fit everything we had accumulated over the past few years. It was difficult sorting and resorting and deciding what to keep and what to give away. However, enormous the lot seemed, trust me, it was nothing compared to the stuff I had to wade through before leaving The Bahamas six years ago This time around there we very few things that I hadn’t used in six months but there were lots of stuff I had bought for those special occasions, that only came out on those “special occasions!”
They say timing is everything. But then they say, there is never a perfect time for anything.”
~ Anthony Liccione
This is the time of year when a lot of people review their lives as they look back on the dying year, some with dread, some with pride about accomplishments, some with disappointment as they continue to wait for the perfect moment to do whatever it was they have been promising to do this year, last year or the year before that.