And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.
~ Haruki Murakami
I grew up near the water, I grew up being lulled at night by the sound of the ocean crashing against the shore, sometimes I still imagine the peaceful sound of waves hitting the sand. My grandfather and great-grandfather taught my brothers and me how to swim when we were knee-high or maybe before. It’s been so long it’s difficult to say when my first swimming lesson was. One thing that I always remembered though was my great-grandfather saying telling me, “if your arms and legs ever get tired, roll on your back and float!” Back then sometimes I would float just for the fun of it. There’s something about the sun hitting your face with the waves carrying you like a baby in its mother’s arms and hearing the sound of your heart beating in your ear, that made life wonderful. It takes a lot of concentration to float on water, you have to imagine yourself, light as a feather, your mind has to be clear because it’s easy to just sink to the bottom like a brick if you lose your thought. In that moment of floating on your back, nothing else matters, you are one with the water and if you listen carefully enough, I’m sure you could hear the voice of God through the waves. Can you imagine that?
There have been so many times in my life that I wished I could just hit that reset button. Those times stuck in traffic and forgot to take that short cut, late for a flight and having to pay that penalty, missed on on the big one and didn’t make that investment. Here I am again, finding myself looking for that reset button, only this time it’s not about being late for a flight, we’re in lockdown, I have nowhere to go? Or about missing that big investment or being stuck in traffic. This time is beyond my control, this time, it’s a test of love, hope, but most of all a test of faith. Is my love great enough to pass on the healing energy to another Being who has lived in my heart for the past 11 years? Do I have enough hope to carry them through this unfortunate ordeal and is my faith strong enough to be rewarded with a much-needed miracle? These are the questions that have been playing in my head for the past two weeks.
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1 There is a thin line between holding the faith and letting go. We all go through seasons in our lives where our faith is rocked to the core and we just want to let go. But life is about learning to take leaps of faith, putting one foot in front of another even if you can’t see the path in front of you. Life is about believing in what some may call the impossible, it’s about living beyond the boundaries of what our mind tells us is the limit. I stand at the threshold of that line, my faith is being tested and I wished to God there was a reset button right now. Throughout our journey, there have been struggles, we climbed mountains even when we couldn’t see the top. Through those struggles, we’ve learned to laugh, cry, and to accept things even when they weren’t going our way. It has to led us to a greater appreciation of the good times. it gave us insight into how our life should be and how we wanted it to be and it has been a wonderful life, is it selfish to want more of those years together?
Right now I’m trying to remind myself that on cloudy days, even when we can’t see it, the Sun is there. Faith is no different, even in times we question it, faith is there, hope is there, love is every present and even in our darkest hours, the Universe is conspiring to give us that which we seek and like all things in life through the next God is omniscient and miracles happen everyday! This day and everyday until we get a clear diagnoses, I’m keeping the faith, while praying for a miracle!
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“The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.” ~C.G. Jung
As we near the end of yet another lockdown here in the U. K, I can’t help but to hit the pause button to reflect on not only the past year, but the past few months. From December to now I’m constantly reflecting on the many things I have implemented in my life which have not only kept me grounded and focus during the first year of this pandemic but has helped we found the self was buried. In the process I discovered that most of what I was looking for was already there, by paying closer attention to self I found what was staring me in the face all along. The quietness of my morning meditative walks helped me discover the beautiful yet simple things in my life.
Chris and I were friends for what seemed like forever. He was my brother from another mother, I kept him grounded, he kept me sane. His mother Val was one of my Mother’s best friends growing up so it was no surprise that she was chosen to be my one Godmothers and no surprise that Chris would turn out to be like a brother to me, we knew each other from the womb. Our free spirits made us inseparable, we shared many adventures he was my Crusoe and I was his Friday.
Genuinely happy people know above all else the importance of taking care of themselves. They’re constantly improving their lives through daily rituals to keep themselves on track. 2020 was a messy year,2021 has yet to prove itself better, we are all going through uncertain times right now but your family, friends and those we come in contact with deserve to experience the best version of you!
“If you walked away from a toxic, negative, abusive, one-sided, dead-end low vibrational relationship or friendship— you won.” ~Lalah Delia
It’s easy to forget that the way people treat you, what people say or do, say more about them than it says about you. You can walk away from the drama but sometimes drama runs into you head-on. One of the best aspects of working from home for me is being away from all the drama of the office and not having to wade through all the different personalities. However, despite working from home though, there is still that interaction between colleagues and yes, sometimes hairs do get crossed, this is when the drama find you! I faced a situation this week that made me step out of character. Looking back at it now, I’m not proud of myself for wasting my energy on such an insignificant thing of someone trying to pass the blame because I knew better. I saw it coming but instead of protecting myself by walking away, I went into it head-on, guns blazing.
The mind is a wonderful thing. It’s also a total liar and an excuse machine that frequently tries to convince us not to take actions we know are good for us. In the end, this prevents many positive changes from taking place in our lives.
I’ve had to learn to watch these lies and excuses very carefully in order to make the positive changes I’ve made in my life: a healthier diet, regular exercise, meditation, more sleep, daily writing, better planning, less procrastination, more focus, etc.
If I hadn’t learned about these lies and excuses, and how to suppress them, I would never have succeeded in making these positive changes. In fact, until I knew better, I had failed countless times when I was young because my mind’s deceptive tendencies used to get the best of me.
“It’s only after you’ve stepped outside your comfort zone that you begin to change, grow, and transform.” ~Roy T. Bennett
Being a recovering procrastinator, self-motivator learner (is that a real term), I’m constantly reading and re-reading books on leadership and management. The popular misconception that they are only pertinent to success in your professional life or business; few people think to carry them into their personal life. But have you given that thought that, if you’re not the leader in your own life, then someone else most certainly will be and they’re not going to lead you in the direction you want to go, but rather in the direction they think you should be going? If you’re not managing your life the same applies.
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language and next year’s words await another voice.” ~T.S. Eliot,
2020 has finally expired, no doubt people around the world held their breath as the old year rolled out and the New Year rolled in. 2020 was a difficult year for everyone, some of us faced disappointments, loss, near misses and all of us, whether directly or indirectly lives was touched by COVID. With the old year behind us, we should all face the new year with clear and honest resolutions to make the each moment count.
A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which read, “I am blind, please help. ”There were only a few coins in the hat – spare change from folks as they hurried past.A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. Then he put the sign back in the boy’s hand so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.
That afternoon, the man who had changed the sign returned to see how things were.The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, “Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?”The man said, “I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.” I wrote, “Today is a beautiful day, but I cannot see it.”Both signs spoke the truth. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind, while the second sign conveyed to everyone walking by how grateful they should be to see…When your life seems full of troubles, it seems difficult to maintain an attitude of gratitude, doesn’t it?
All we see are our problems, like a blackened storm cloud casting a dark shadow over our lives. And the times when everything just seems to be going smoothly? We often take these precious moments for granted too, don’t we? Caught up in the bliss, comfort, and familiarity of it all, we can simply forget to be thankful. So what, then, is gratitude?Simply put, gratitude is a habit. It’s a way of looking at the world and all the good things in it with a feeling of appreciation, regardless of whether or not your current situation is to your liking. Gratitude is a heart-centered approach to being at peace with yourself and with all you have. When you practice this feeling of gratitude, it attracts even MORE things into your life for which to be grateful.
Go ahead, try it out right now. What or who do you have in your life to be thankful for?